First and foremost I am a child of God. I am a sinner saved by grace alone. I am also a mother and a wife to three amazing men! My two boys are truly miracles and I thank God for them. After struggling with infertility and six miscarriages, I count every day with them as a blessing! My husband is my best friend and I am so thankful for him.
We have gone through some very tough times, especially recently, but the Lord has sustained us and brought us through. Even admist the storm, I will praise Him!
From Adam:
I stayed up and read your whole blog tonight. I want to you to know I love you and want to support everything that is important to you. I don’t always understand everything you go through though I doubt many in this life could. But I want to be the rock in your life that you can lean on when times are tough. I want to be there for you so badly and it pained me tonight to read your blogs for the first time, and get a better understanding of how the misscarages effect you. How you have trouble at times finding happiness, how not being a SAHM effects you.
I would do anything for you to never hurt again. I will work harder at my job so one day you can SAH. I will do my best to bring happiness into your life each and every day.
I am left with a dilemma to try and have another baby with you so that you will have what you and I want so badly. But at the same time I know that it may not survive and you will be crushed. I could never intentionally hurt you and yet that seems to be the situation at hand. I just want to protect you and I never want you to have to feel that pain again. Lord please give us guidence……
I want to thank you, as we approach our anniversary, for being a loving wife, mother, and my best friend. I need you, I need you, I need you. You are so wonderful in everyway. I look forward to growing with you spiritually. I will ALWAYS be there for you. Just know when you are feeling down that Austin and I will always be there for you. My love for you grows daily and I am so lucky to have that feeling inside of me.
Thank you my wife, my lover, my soulmate.
-your loving Husband